What does it mean when you feel like you've died?

Why do I think of death sometimes?

Is it because I know I'm going to die?

Is it that I am afraid? Is it that I feel my time has come? Is it that the end is near? Is it that I want to be with the ones I love? Is it that I want to die at peace? Is it that I want to go home? Is it because I'm tired of living? Is it that I feel guilty? Is it because I can't see any hope? Is it that I don't care? Is it that I feel nothing?

What does it mean when you feel like you've died?

What does it mean to be free?

To feel like it can't get any better? How does it begin, this feeling that we know deep down, is a part of the human experience? Perhaps it's fear. Some sort of existential dread. Perhaps sadness.

There is something so incredibly frightening about death. It's a loss of control. It's a loss of who you were and who you might have been, a chance to live. For some, it's also terrifyingly beautiful because it means an escape from the limitations of mortality, a journey into oblivion.

In the movies, when a character finds that, finally, his life has outrun its meaning, it is a moment where he/she loses the only thing that has ever held true. They die because they lose their will to live.

Some might call this the beginning of depression. Others a sign of being on edge, of getting past the threshold of what is manageable and into what is unmanageable, beyond hope. But how can I hope to die? As the clich goes, is to fear it all and embrace it all at the same time. When fear turns into death, it's then, when your life is nothing but a blur of grey and white light, a void with nothing one side and oblivion on the other.

I can't die now. I'm about to begin the new course in which I learn I need more than any degree ever taught me. I'm about to join a world I'm a part of but don't recognize. When I'm gone, there will be something of me. What does it take for us to start our new lives, but first, our goodbyes?

If my death is inevitable, it's a matter of time. If I've always known this, there was never a reason to hope or believe otherwise. In order for me to embrace my imminent departure, I must begin the process of letting go, or of letting everyone but myself go. My family and loved ones, they are the ones who are in need of protection. And they have a right to protect themselves. How could I force them to face their most difficult times? I'm no hero. How can I force myself to give in to the very worst moment of my existence? I wouldn't have been happy to face mine before it became unavoidable.

Is my body shutting down?

I've been having an extremely bad headache for the last few days.

It's not the kind of headache you can take Advil for. It's constant, feels like it's been going on for days and days. It's like a migraine but its not painful. Just very irritating.

I've also had some slight nausea and a really bad case of diarrhea which hasn't changed, but it seems to have worsened as the day has gone on. I haven't slept all night and the fatigue is off the charts. I'm exhausted and irritable. I've lost weight and I feel like my body is shutting down. I haven't had any symptoms with my asthma, so that's nice.

I'm also trying to avoid any type of infection at this point because I have one of the worst colds I've had in years. I have been having a lot of nosebleeds lately and there's always a lot of blood in my stool.

I have a doctor appointment for Thursday and I'm going to tell them I feel like I'm coming down with the flu and ask them if I'm getting the flu shot. I'm scared because it's so bad right now and I'm feeling more tired than I have in a long time. I also need to tell them about my nosebleeds and diarrhea.

Comments (32). I am sorry to hear this. I too am going through this. I have been dealing with severe headaches, body aches, pain, fever, and terrible fatigue for weeks now. I am so hoping that this will pass soon. I've been to the doctor 3 times now and they are all stumped. It is so frustrating. Hang in there.

I'm sorry you're going through this. I've had headaches like yours for a while now. They don't seem to have a pattern, but they are usually associated with some sort of change in my daily routine (more work, more school, a break in my routine). I have noticed that when I'm trying to get ready for something, like an event or a meeting, that my headaches get worse. I always think it's my anxiety. Maybe try to relax and try to get some rest?

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